I just reborn, how come I become a scumbag?

Chapter 520

But.

On the other hand.

Tan Zijin felt that she was still so stupid.

That was the relationship between herself and Xiao Xu.

Or to be more precise, it was her feelings for Xiao Xu!

Xiao Xu did not teach her this.

So Tan Zijin was particularly confused and at a loss.

She often felt that what happened since the day she filled in the application form was so unreal, so she would worry about gains and losses, and would be afraid that one day she would wake up and find that all this was just a dream.

Tan Zijin clearly remembered every word Xiao Xu said, every thing he did, and even every expression and smile at that time.

Xiao Xu changed her.

No, it was Xiao Xu who saved and healed her.

Whether it was Zipei, her father, her grandmother, or the entire poor and bleak family in the past, they were all completely changed because of Xiao Xu.

Xiao Xu was the sun in her life!

Tan Zijin just didn't understand, she only knew to study hard before, but no one taught her.

But she is a smart girl, she learns things very quickly and understands them at once.

And.

Low self-esteem or even autism does not mean that there is no emotion, but that one is afraid to face and deal with one's own emotions.

After buying a mobile phone and QQ, Tan Zijin did not sleep all night that night. She read Xu Anruo's QQ space from the first day he opened it to the day he just opened it.

More than 700 comments and more than 2,000 messages, spanning a full nine years, from Xiao Xu's elementary school to high school graduation.

The most she saw were all about a girl, a girl named Cheng Xuanyu.

She looked at the photo for a long time, watching Xiao Xu salute innocently, and the girl tiptoed to look at him, with light in her eyes, her eyes full of him.

That girl is really beautiful.

Later, when Tan Zijin grew up a little, she found the most appropriate adjective and felt that it was the beauty of youth.

Tan Zijin knew Cheng Xuanyu, because Wang Fang, the talkative classmate in the second year of high school, liked to talk about them the most, either Xu Anruo or Cheng Xuanyu.

However, two days later, that post was deleted by Xiao Xu, and later even the space was set up with permissions.

Xiao Xu never mentioned that girl.

Tan Zijin would not ask, she did not dare, and she felt that she was not qualified to ask, and she did not even dare to think about it during that time.

She felt that Xiao Xu was just kind-hearted and could not bear to see the suffering of the world, so he came to help her.

That's all.

But, after all, he was a male classmate.

But Zipei still said that she did not want a brother but a brother-in-law.

But, on the day of picking rice stalks, Xiao Xu asked if she wanted to go home with him?

For a while, Tan Zijin was particularly afraid of Xu Anruo's appearance.

She felt that picking rice stalks once was enough, and she would remember this kindness, repay it, and never forget it for the rest of her life.

But, Xiao Xu appeared again and again.

I was so dumb and couldn't speak at that time, and I couldn't refute Xiao Xu's arguments.

Xiao Xu did so much for me unreasonably, what should I do?

And, it seems, I seem to...

No, no!

It's not!

Tan Zijin didn't dare to think about it!

Besides, even if it is, so what?

Xiao Xu is such a good, excellent and powerful person, there are already many girls who like him, what about me?

Besides, he still has that girl.

She is a childhood sweetheart and school beauty.

But...

Why does Zipei always like to say brother-in-law?

Why do grandma and dad mean to let me cherish Xiao Xu?

The neighbors around also joked from time to time, saying that Xiao Xu is not bad, his grandmother is in the next village, and his parents are good people.

Zipei recognized Xiao Xu's parents as godparents.

That day, Tan Zijin heard the voice of Xiao Xu's mother for the first time. She spoke so gently and kindly, calling her "Zijin" all the time. At that time, her tears welled up in her eyes again.

Xiao Xu's mother was still so rude to Xiao Xu, emphasizing over and over again that if Xu Anruo bullied you, tell your aunt and she would beat him up.

That was the first time Tan Zijin felt protected by her mother.

At that time, she had grown a lot.

It was really different from high school.

After cutting her hair, she listened to Xiao Xu and began to pay attention to nutrition. She also became more confident and began to receive a lot of attention. She heard many people praise her for her good looks, self-discipline, and hard work. .

During military training, a boy brought her water.

There were also some inexplicable friend requests on QQ.

Even during class, there were seniors waiting at the door, waiting to come up and talk to her and make friends.

The most important thing was that Xiao Xu always praised her.

At that time, Tan Zijin finallyYu Da got up his courage, looked in the mirror, and then thought stupidly, I don’t think I’m… not ugly, right?

When talking to her family on the phone, Zipei was still the same, especially after having a godmother and godfather, she was so happy.

Tan Zijin was so happy for her.

But Zipei said, sister will be happy too?

Tan Zijin was very stupid, her mind was hazy, listening to Zipei whispering on the phone, sister, I’m sure, Luo’s mother actually thinks sister is her daughter-in-law!

Daughter-in-law?

That’s also a word that Tan Zijin didn’t dare to think about.

Because Xiao Xu often came to see him, often appeared behind Building 2, and came to the dormitory several times, his roommates all knew him.

At first it was Xiaoxue, who kept asking if you two were in love?

Tan Zijin blushed and shook her head.

Xiaoxue was very surprised, saying it’s impossible? You haven’t agreed to him yet?

Tan Zijin didn't understand, what did he say he agreed to?

Xiaoxue was shocked at the time, saying that it was obvious that Xu Anruo was pursuing her, Zijin was so stupid?

Xiaoxu was, was he pursuing her?

Tan Zijin couldn't sleep again that night.

It was also after that day that she suddenly didn't know how to face Xiaoxu.

She was actually very smart.

She didn't dare to think about it before, but if she really had the courage to face it, she could think clearly.

Tan Zijin could clearly feel an invisible boundary between Xiaoxu and herself.

This was invisible to outsiders, but Tan Zijin could feel it.

Xiaoxu never let her do stupid things.

Xiaoxu always restrained himself in time every time his emotions fluctuated.

Xiaoxu was always at a distance that was neither too close nor too far.

Why?

Why was it like this?

Tan Zijin thought it was probably because of the girl named Cheng Xuanyu.

Actually, Tan Zijin knew about that girl.

It was after the National Day. She was the only female classmate in the senior year who had contact information. When chatting with her on QQ, she suddenly mentioned that Xu Anruo from the Chinese class of our first grade also went to Jiangda. Do you know her?

Tan Zijin said she knew her.

The female classmate said, "Really? That's the school hunk. By the way, there is another school belle named Cheng Xuanyu. But they broke up completely during the summer vacation. At that time, it was very popular. It was said that Xu Anruo had been pursuing her for a long time but couldn't get her, and she was heartbroken...