I just reborn, how come I become a scumbag?

Chapter 538

"Why not? You were like this from the beginning. On the day of filling in the application form, you disappeared as soon as I turned my head. It was the same on the day of picking rice stalks. This and that didn't work. I was so anxious that I had to be tough, but I was afraid that you would think I was hateful!"

"I was quite hateful at that time..."

"Ah?"

"Hehe, Xiao Xu."

"Are you still laughing?"

"Don't laugh, don't laugh, Xiao Xu, keep talking, I, I like to hear it."

Tan Zijin snuggled into Xu Anruo's arms again.

Xu Anruo raised her head, rested her chin against her head, and rubbed her hair, enjoying and feeling comfortable.

"In fact, I was particularly afraid that you couldn't get over it. At that time, I really felt sorry for you, and I was afraid that I had done too much or it was too obvious, and you wouldn't be able to accept it. But now it's all right. Now I realize that you, Zijin, have such a lovely side."

This was Xu Anruo's true words.

He even felt particularly fortunate.

Because children from single-parent families are particularly prone to character defects, such as sensitivity, inner closure, emotional instability, lack of security, lack of willingness to give, etc.

But Tan Zijin is not like that. She only had some withdrawn personality disorder at the beginning, but her heart was hot and tough.

The so-called withdrawn personality disorder is actually a kind of self-protection that she naturally formed.

In order to save his wife, Tan Zhonghong lied and deceived all his relatives. Later, he lost both his money and his family and could not pay back the money. The attitudes of his relatives changed drastically. Many people's indifference and reality directly hurt Tan Zijin.

Then there is the long-term debt. This debt is on two levels, the material level of money and the spiritual level of unworthiness.

So what Tan Zijin fears most is to cause trouble to others. If she causes trouble, she owes others. She is too afraid of this.

So, she gradually withdrew and became autistic.

But she never gave up on herself. She was always very tenacious, studied hard, and took on all the heavy farm work at home.

She took the saying "suffering is the best teacher in life" seriously.

She even got used to being the one who suffered the most and endured the most.

Did Xu Anruo ever think about how she managed to hold on, or how she did it. Was she so amazing?

No, that should be said to be only one aspect.

Looking back, Xu Anruo felt that Tan Zijin was actually lucky while being unfortunate.

What is lucky?

It was that his father Tan Zhonghong never failed to fulfill his responsibilities. He just had limited abilities, but he was always a good husband and a good father.

But if Tan Zhonghong's personal character problems, such as being an alcoholic or a gambler, led to the breakdown of the family, then the situation would be completely different.

Tan Zhonghong had told Xu Anruo before that on the New Year's Day, he knelt down in front of several relatives at home and said that Zijin's grades were good and he would save some money for her to study. This child really couldn't go out to work like this.

It was because of this that Tan Zijin still gritted his teeth to finish his studies.

Then there are Zipei and grandma. Zipei is needless to say. The little clever ghost is so healing. Without her, Zijin would be in trouble.

Grandma is also, she loves her granddaughter more than anyone else.

Finally, there are the teachers in the growth process. Xu Anruo didn't understand her in junior high school, but the most important three years of high school, her head teacher, Teacher Yao, was really a good teacher, just like Xu Anruo's old class, yes, and Principal Zuo!

But what is the most important thing? It's still that she is motivated!

If she is motivated, Tan Zhonghong will have hope, the burden on grandma at home will be reduced, and Zipei will be taken care of by her sister.

At school, the teachers saw her efforts and achievements first, and then they treated her specially and took care of her.

How to say this?

Xu Anruo felt that there was a sentence that was particularly appropriate.

Because of hard work, you are lucky!

Yes!

That's the sentence!

She was the same after she met Xu Anruo. She was too serious. She did everything Xu Anruo said. She seemed lucky, but it was actually due to the hard work behind it!

So, it was precisely because of these that Tan Zijin slowly released the burden and restraints on her body for a long time, and revealed a particularly beautiful personality!

Especially after getting close to each other in the past two days, she was really releasing her beauty bit by bit!

At this time, Tan Zijin was praised by Xu Anruo for being cute, and she was embarrassed again.

"Am I really cute?" Tan Zijin asked in a low voice.

"Of course, I am cute when I roll my eyes." Xu Anruo said.

"Ah? You are making fun of me." She also hummed.

But then, she asked quietly:

"Anything else, Xiao Xu?"

"Yes! I went home last night.After I went there, I didn't sleep well. I was excited and happy, but I was also afraid, so I thought about a lot of things, especially about our future. "Xu Anruo said.

This is also true. He thought a lot last night.

Tan Zijin became serious when he heard it, and seemed to be particularly concerned about and looking forward to the words "our future".

"Then, what does Xiao Xu think?" she asked.

"Zijin, do you think I'm awesome?" Xu Anruo suddenly said this.

"Ah? Awesome! Very, very awesome, I, I actually admire Xiao Xu..." She was stunned for a moment, and then replied more shyly.

However...

"Really? I think so too, sometimes I admire myself!" Xu Anruo said shamelessly.

But this statement obviously destroyed the atmosphere, and Tan Zijin struggled, turned her head and opened her eyes to look at Xu Anruo, but she smiled, with a look of surprise and tenderness in her eyes.

"How can you praise yourself like this? "She murmured.

"Oh, I can't help it!" Xu Anruo continued to brag.

Then Tan Zijin was happy, pursed his lips and smiled, and said: "Okay, okay, Xiao Xu."

Xu Anruo didn't mean to brag about herself, it was almost enough, and her tone was serious again.,

And Tan Zijin also resumed his appearance of listening to the class properly, looking at Xu Anruo with seriousness, and with undisguised expectations and admiration.

This look, anyone would be confused!

"Zijin, what I said means that I have the ability to change the material life of you and your family immediately, such as giving you a sum of money..." Xu Anruo said.

But halfway through the words, he was interrupted by Tan Zijin:

"I don't want it! ”

“After listening to me, I know you won’t want it, so, I thought a lot last night, and I still hope you can keep the same pace of study as before, and continue to work hard. This will definitely be very tiring, but remember what I said, Grandma, Uncle Tan and Zipei, you have to rely on your own efforts and abilities to take better care of them!”

“I know, I will!”

Tan Zijin nodded vigorously, with light in his eyes, tenacious and confident!