I just reborn, how come I become a scumbag?

Chapter 176

Hate is fine, right?

So that's why you told Xu Anruo that you deserve a better girl?

What about you?

Are you going to endure it alone?

But Cheng Xuanyu, you said you're not a ninja!

At this time, Cheng Xuanyu buried her head again, squatting there, pitiful.

Xu Anruo supported her, distressed, wanted to hug her but didn't know what to do.

Alas!

Alas!

Xu Anruo had a lot more questions to ask.

He wanted to ask what would happen after you disappeared?

He even wanted to ask what would happen if your mother still forced you to get along with Huang Zilong?

But as soon as he thought about it, Xu Anruo wanted to slap himself. Damn, who are you, Xu Anruo? What qualifications do you have to ask these questions?

What did you do?

What did you do for Cheng Xuanyu in your previous life?

Ah, yes!

You have been chasing her, only her in your eyes, and you also planned to spend your life with her.

I stayed up all night with her on the phone, bought her medicine when she was sick, and stayed by her side when she was unhappy...

And then?

Didn't she treat you like this?

You said that your entire youth was all about her, which was incredible.

Wasn't she? She said that the second person who accompanied her the most in her life was you!

Accompany.

There is another synonym for companionship, which is companionship! !

It's been more than four years.

It's been more than four years since the decision in the senior year of the previous life.

Xu Anruo seems to have never reflected on himself.

He painted himself too innocent and too affectionate.

It's Cheng Xuanyu's fault, it's the world's fault, anyway, it's not Xu Anruo's fault.

He's too self-righteous.

He's arrogant and thinks of himself as something.

What was Xu Anruo like in his student days?

The two of them have been together for so long, and have so many memories, but in the end, Cheng Xuanyu still bears the most material burden.

The biggest obstacle to the development of the two people, facing the greatest difficulties and pressure, in the end, Cheng Xuanyu was silently bearing it alone.

She couldn't agree to confess and confirm the relationship, but what about the rest? She secretly gave everything she could.

In addition, Xu Anruo was too good at finding excuses for herself.

In the previous life, Fatty asked him to ask Cheng Xuanyu, and he said what to ask? If she is better than me, I lose, and if she is not as good as me, I lose more miserably.

Later, Fatty came to Shanghai to find him and mentioned this again. He said that he was not that cheap.

After graduation, he let himself go and changed girlfriends one after another. He was at ease as a sea king.

Some of them really liked him, but after he lost the feeling, he directly ignored them. When the girls cried and asked to stay, he said that he had been hurt before and was afraid of giving and afraid of falling too deep.

Then there was no light behind him and the white fog in front of him, and he said a lot of things.

He clearly has been adhering to the rubbish thinking of not taking the initiative, not refusing, and always paying attention to safety, but he said to himself in his heart that he is not a scumbag, he just lacks someone in his heart, so he can't find a reason to refuse.

He even put the blame on Cheng Xuanyu, saying that how affectionate he was in the past, how promiscuous he became later.

He gave up the whole forest for a tree, and now there is no tree, so he has no reason to give up the forest.

He is still like this after rebirth.

Fatty said to Xu Anruo, you can't just give up like this. He said it's not that the bluebird can't fly over the sea, but that there is no one waiting on the other side of the sea.

Dad said that your generation is different from our generation. If something is broken, just replace it. Xu Anruo talked to him about sunk costs.

Huang Zilong talked so much to him from the bottom of his heart, and he asked Huang Zilong to get out, saying that you are just a self-touching dog, a kind of deformed self-satisfaction that creates a false impression of infatuation.

Obviously he was soft-hearted and greedy, unable to let go, but he told himself in his heart not to presuppose to spend a lifetime with someone, just get along naturally, fate and destiny...

The same is true for Tan Zijin.

He said he couldn't bear to see the suffering of the world.

He said it was rare for an only child to have a sister.

He analyzed her father, analyzed the true meaning of friendship, and was proud of himself for healing her again and again.

And when facing You Ya.

That day in the back street, eating barbecue, the atmosphere was seductive, and Xu Anruo couldn't help being restless.

Then he thought of Cheng Xuanyu and Tan Zijin in his mind, and then he actually felt an inexplicable sense of pride.

He felt like the Sea King had settled down, there was a light in his heart, and he found the tree that gave him a reason to give up the whole cold forest.

How rare is it? How much more precious is a prodigal son?

But you are thinking about two trees, then you can make a forest of two trees! !

Really!

Xu Anruo found out that he was so damn self-righteous!

He would find a way to take advantage of any problem, and then make up logical reasons and excuses, and finally clear himself of all wrongdoing.Sitting on the high ground of morality and logic, he is complacent and points fingers.

Of course, this is also his ability, his skill.

But this cannot change his selfishness! Self-righteousness! Self-superiority! He will never reflect on himself and judge himself! !

It is also Cheng Xuanyu who is stupid, Tan Zijin who is foolish, and the girlfriends he changed in his previous life are too low-level to beat him.

But Xu Anruo is not just like this to girls.

In his previous life, when Fatty got into trouble, he took on debts and took care of Fatty's mother. Every Qingming and Double Ninth Festival, he would go to Fatty's grave and curse, which made him look so great and valued brotherhood!

But what is the truth?

Didn't Fatty look for him before the accident?

When he came to Shanghai, Xu Anruo became impatient after a few words, and he was obediently holding his mobile phone and talking to WeChat Baby the whole time.

He didn't even notice that Fatty was in a bad mood.

Just like when he spent three years in college with Cheng Xuanyu, he didn't notice that Cheng Xuanyu's emotions were always so depressed. He even thought that Cheng Xiaomao was gentle and quiet.

Xu Anruo, he only cares about himself.

He is so real!

He has been talking about himself from beginning to end.

He always starts from his own standpoint.

That's why he is always in the so-called "not bad and undefeated" position.

And!

Facing Cheng Xuanyu.

His inner world is so fucking wonderful.

What let her go, what let myself go, what's not that she is bad, it's that I can't go back, what's that I can't do anything about her, what's that just get along naturally and let fate decide...

There are so many dramas that you can write a book and shoot a bloody soap opera.

What's the point of being so stubborn?

What's the point of making up?

I can't let go.

I have never let go for so many years!

Don't you still feel bad when she cries, don't you also raise your lips when she smiles, her emotions always affect your emotions, is this called letting go?

If you can't let go, just pick it up, Xu Anruo, you are reincarnated from Xu Erba, not the 18-year-old boy who has nothing and is self-righteous!

Finally!

I don't have the face to think about it.

What did Xu Anruo think when he was just reborn?

There are so many seniors and juniors in Jiangda, and he went to college in his previous life for nothing.

Then he met Tan Zijin, and thought that this might be a treasure girl, and when the idea came, he swung the hoe.